Bago ako umalis, kailangan ko munang mamaalam...
Maglalayag ang aking kaluluwa sa mga susunod na araw. Muli kong pinagbigyan ang makati kong mga paa sa kaniyang pagpupumilit na tumahak ng bagong landas, kahit na pansumandali lamang. Ninais nitong lumayo at aking pinagbigyan. Marahil dahil kailangan din ng aking puso at isipan ng pahinga, lalo't higit ng pagal kong katawan. Ayoko na munang mag-isip; gusto ko munang liparin ang kawalan.
Sa aking pagbabalik, marahil ay wala namang magiging pagbabago. Babalik pa rin akong bitbit ang dati kong sarili ~ nasasaktan, nahihirapan, napapagod... ngunit sana, sa aking pagbalik, handa na akong lumaban, matuto at higit sa lahat, iwan ang lahat ng pait at hinanakit. Dahil binulok nito ang aking pagkatao, dahil sinira nito ang aking diwa. At higit sa lahat, dahil panahon na upang bumuo ng bagong katauhang hinabi sa dati kong mga gawi ~ malaya, mapangarap at naniniwalang ang lahat sa buhay ay maganda.
Sa aking pamamaalam, ako'y babangon... Sa aking paglisan, ako'y mabubuhay na muli...
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Babes and Our Text Exchange
Was out last Friday the whole night with someone. What we did we pledged to keep between the two of us; but yes, I enjoyed the night! We parted ways around 9 AM the following day after being together for more than 10 hours… Oy intriga yan ha!
Anyway, still feeling sleepy that Saturday afternoon, I was awakened by a text message: “Lunch na po babes”. I chose not to reply and instead prepared myself for the reception of Siman-Lim Nuptial to fulfill my duty as the reception program host.
Sunday was such a busy day that we both did not bother to send each other even a single Hi.
Monday, when I was busy listening to Lance Gokongwei’s speech in the 4th Accenture Leadership Conference, I received another text:
“Ingat ka po sa pagpasok babes wag magpakapagod eat your lunch on time”
Swear, kailangan ko na to patulan kasi kinikilig na ako!
Sagot ko: “Assuming ka ha, nun isang araw ka pa tumatawag sa akin ng babes. Babes ka jan!” .
Sumagot: “Hehe malaki ka kc po kaya babe tawag q sau ingat po babes”
Anyway, still feeling sleepy that Saturday afternoon, I was awakened by a text message: “Lunch na po babes”. I chose not to reply and instead prepared myself for the reception of Siman-Lim Nuptial to fulfill my duty as the reception program host.
Sunday was such a busy day that we both did not bother to send each other even a single Hi.
Monday, when I was busy listening to Lance Gokongwei’s speech in the 4th Accenture Leadership Conference, I received another text:
“Ingat ka po sa pagpasok babes wag magpakapagod eat your lunch on time”
Swear, kailangan ko na to patulan kasi kinikilig na ako!
Sagot ko: “Assuming ka ha, nun isang araw ka pa tumatawag sa akin ng babes. Babes ka jan!” .
Sumagot: “Hehe malaki ka kc po kaya babe tawag q sau ingat po babes”
(Dissapointment came in. Gusto ko ibato yun baso ko ng iced tea at water pati na rin yun mug ko ng hot chocolate sa kung sino man pwedeng tamaan. Naisip ko lang nasa Renaissance Hotel ako so, I needed to compose myself.)
Sagot ko uli sa kaniya sa sobrang inis: “Hayop ka!”
Sagot nya uli: “Wag n magalit babes miss u po cge po ligo na aq”
Ewan ko ba... kabwiset na kakilig... Ady, magpapayat ka na!!! Baboy ka na daw sabi ni BABES…
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Loaded
My August has been loaded so far. It’s only the 6th day yet the fatigue that I am feeling right now looks like I’ve already advanced to the last day. It may be because of the fact that I’ll be on a one-week hiatus on the 4th week hence must really work double-time, or simply because there are really many things to accomplish in the office lately ~ Revisions in the Performance Appraisals, Talent Engagement Council Meeting and Action Planning, GP2WC Team Building, Go Green Project, Leadership Conference, All Hands Meeting with the Senior Execs, Contract Renewals, Re---------- Planning (sorry can’t mention yet for my colleagues are reading my blog and it’s still a big secret) etc. etc. ~ huh, my plate is really full.
Aside from these, there are many other activities to attend to ~ be present in the wedding and host the reception program of Didi and Mike, my college friends, join Club T in their Manila Ocean Park jaunt (though this one’s not yet sure to push through for one of the Ts got badly sick), watch the Cheering Competition of the Accenture BPO Olympics, lead the GP2WC Outing in Pansol, inquire with E-jay in Mapua for his college education… hayyy…
I am not complaining though. I must really pay the price of being out for one-week and I completely understand the need for me to ensure that things will be smooth-sailing in the office before I leave (and of course during the hibernation). Even if I anticipate many works, programs, initiatives, challenges to accomplish since my return to the office is in time with the new fiscal year, the one-week break I guess would be enough for me to refuel my energies. Just hoping though that despite Yeth’s absence (but still praying she’ still IN for it’s not gonna be the same), the out-of-town will still be enjoyable… hayyy naman kasing sakit yan, traydor talaga kahit kailan! Boracay and Bacolod, here comes the bitches!
So before I feel the stress of these many to-do's and this sore throat’s threatening complications, I must go relaxing for even a second. And there’s no other way to unwind and liberate my psyche out of the many heavy thinking but to write a new blog (though this may not be too inspiring). I don’t care, blogs are personal thingy anyway… tama ba Periwinkle?
The scent of the 14th month pay’s remainder is really soothing… may baon na ako sa Bora!
And before I forget, thanks to the ‘Sundance Movie’, for I was again re-taught the importance of laughing the worries and woes away… I should really do it more often… the Richard-KC movie is next in line. Jologs na kung jologs, wapakels!
Aside from these, there are many other activities to attend to ~ be present in the wedding and host the reception program of Didi and Mike, my college friends, join Club T in their Manila Ocean Park jaunt (though this one’s not yet sure to push through for one of the Ts got badly sick), watch the Cheering Competition of the Accenture BPO Olympics, lead the GP2WC Outing in Pansol, inquire with E-jay in Mapua for his college education… hayyy…
I am not complaining though. I must really pay the price of being out for one-week and I completely understand the need for me to ensure that things will be smooth-sailing in the office before I leave (and of course during the hibernation). Even if I anticipate many works, programs, initiatives, challenges to accomplish since my return to the office is in time with the new fiscal year, the one-week break I guess would be enough for me to refuel my energies. Just hoping though that despite Yeth’s absence (but still praying she’ still IN for it’s not gonna be the same), the out-of-town will still be enjoyable… hayyy naman kasing sakit yan, traydor talaga kahit kailan! Boracay and Bacolod, here comes the bitches!
So before I feel the stress of these many to-do's and this sore throat’s threatening complications, I must go relaxing for even a second. And there’s no other way to unwind and liberate my psyche out of the many heavy thinking but to write a new blog (though this may not be too inspiring). I don’t care, blogs are personal thingy anyway… tama ba Periwinkle?
The scent of the 14th month pay’s remainder is really soothing… may baon na ako sa Bora!
And before I forget, thanks to the ‘Sundance Movie’, for I was again re-taught the importance of laughing the worries and woes away… I should really do it more often… the Richard-KC movie is next in line. Jologs na kung jologs, wapakels!
Friday, August 1, 2008
Ode to My Favorite Trainee
I thought I have known you better ~ all this time, I never knew that the persona that you now exude could ever subsist. I never knew that behind your strong personality is a soul who couldn’t be brave to face the sole reason of all your anxieties. I just realized that like the many, you too had the propensity to be cowardly in weathering the possibilities… that you are joining us ~ we who wear the mask of a fiery warrior yet a feeble slave of our own fears.
There’s no denying of the shrewdness you possess, the character that you own and the personality that is beyond compare. You have shown us the good and bad in you… and we simply loved them all irregardless as to how these attributes shaped you as a person. In your circle of friends, we made you feel that you belong ~ despite our clashes, despite our individuality and despite the many things uncommon to all of us. We valued your significance as a friend ~ the someone who will not stab our backs and the someone who will help us in anchoring the friendship sail, wherever the voyage is.
Now that you are faced with bafflement, the only piece of advice that I could give you is to be the person that we knew you are ~ strong, honest and sincere. I felt privileged that you let me knew your feelings, your anxieties, and your concerns. Now be audacious enough to take the first and most important step!
Do not be mortified of the person that you are for there is no single reason to be such. Do not be fearful of the feeling because it is only a sign of your humanity. Above all, open it ~ I have asked you to try… and trying it does not mean you will deviate from the standards and create havoc in the smooth way of how things are going now. Definitely, that’s not your purpose! What you’ll do is simply a way of getting through with these things. For all you know, a simple Hi is all that it takes. A simple Hello is the start of getting it.
And yes, it can never be as promising as we wanted it to be (at least we’re accepting it), but who cares? In this world where possibilities abound, we should be contented with the simplest of all things… We should be happy with what we hold in one hand. If our other hand would have something, then that is simply our bonus…
Go and be his friend… If it’s all that it could be, then be happy about it… at least you have come out of the darkness ~ at least, the love that you sealed in your silence will no longer haunt you.
Go, my friend… go!!! He may just be waiting…
There’s no denying of the shrewdness you possess, the character that you own and the personality that is beyond compare. You have shown us the good and bad in you… and we simply loved them all irregardless as to how these attributes shaped you as a person. In your circle of friends, we made you feel that you belong ~ despite our clashes, despite our individuality and despite the many things uncommon to all of us. We valued your significance as a friend ~ the someone who will not stab our backs and the someone who will help us in anchoring the friendship sail, wherever the voyage is.
Now that you are faced with bafflement, the only piece of advice that I could give you is to be the person that we knew you are ~ strong, honest and sincere. I felt privileged that you let me knew your feelings, your anxieties, and your concerns. Now be audacious enough to take the first and most important step!
Do not be mortified of the person that you are for there is no single reason to be such. Do not be fearful of the feeling because it is only a sign of your humanity. Above all, open it ~ I have asked you to try… and trying it does not mean you will deviate from the standards and create havoc in the smooth way of how things are going now. Definitely, that’s not your purpose! What you’ll do is simply a way of getting through with these things. For all you know, a simple Hi is all that it takes. A simple Hello is the start of getting it.
And yes, it can never be as promising as we wanted it to be (at least we’re accepting it), but who cares? In this world where possibilities abound, we should be contented with the simplest of all things… We should be happy with what we hold in one hand. If our other hand would have something, then that is simply our bonus…
Go and be his friend… If it’s all that it could be, then be happy about it… at least you have come out of the darkness ~ at least, the love that you sealed in your silence will no longer haunt you.
Go, my friend… go!!! He may just be waiting…
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