La Wenta

Yes, this is my nth try to write for the past three days. Cycle was I start to write, someone calls over the phone, entertain the call and then, writer’s block. Hmpf! I’m in deep SHIT, now what?

Or probably because I am not feeling well for the past three days… not outside but inside… Heart broken? Yes. No. Yes. No. Weird!

Truth is I don’t have a love life now. I just feel the pain… no, not pain… but jealousy. For whom? For someone I do not know. For someone I haven’t met. For someone I haven’t seen. For someone who doesn’t seem to care if I exist or not.

Stalker? I was, I am and will always be. But stalking who? No one! Ah, yes! Stalking someone. Who? If I say who then I would no longer be a stalker right? Figure this out!

Gosh Ady… you’re getting weird again! Relax. Breathe. Try to put some alcohol in your stomach! Ooops sorry, not good for my hyper-acidity. Try smoking! Aha, big NO! Not my cup of tea. Drink some water in the pantry area, post your message in the message board. Urinate. Go back to your workstation, unlock your desktop, check your e-mail. See who’s online in AIM (nevah mind, will just hang around my colleagues’ workstations). Be online in YM, nobody interesting to chat with. Post your controversial YM statuses (suicidal, just committed suicide, putang ina ninyong lahat, etc.). Log-off. Lock your PC. Go to the other side of the floor. Have a chat with Bim or Miles. Go back to your workstation, open your friendster account. Sigh. No update.

Update your planner. No more important appointments to take note. Wear your jacket. Undo it. Check your cellphone… no message. Call someone. Aha, nevah mind, the person’s busy. Take a nap. Can’t be. It’s almost 5 PM. Prepare to go home. Oops, the planner shouted, "you have a meeting at 8 PM. Cybergate 2. Room 8.41 and 8.42. BPO Olympics Council Meeting." Hayyy… sit back. Unlock your PC. Stare at the black monitor. Sigh.

Hmmm, getting hungry. Call McDonald’s? Better yet, go downstairs to catch fresh air. Oops, have to save. But fuck! I am hungryyyyy!

Sit back. Hmm, what to do next? Hmp! Stare at the ceiling. Hmm, aircon is in maximum degree, super cold. Lower it down. Warm enough! Unlock my PC. Blinking AIM window. It says “what time tayo alis?” Answered, “6:30”. Got a reply, “OK”

Checked the Microsoft Outlook, one new e-mail. From Iche, Final Interview schedule, not for me but for another TL. Was just copied. Irene Maraño asked, “Sir Ady, pano po malaman ang TIN”. Replied “Sa D200 Masterfile, kay Iche po”. Looking at Reno Magbanua as he claims his HMO card.

Dialing 8-MCDO. One Quarter Pounder Meal, Large Fries, Large Coke. Oops, not even the minimum delivery amount. Ask Paul to order. He don’t want. (Oops, nananaginip ata ako! Hindi ko to ginawa)

(Eto naman mga naforesee ko na gagawin)

Bullshit! Go downstairs, there’s a McDonald’s store just across GT.

Went the other way. Went to underpass. Hmm, where am I going? KFC? Hmm, spaghetti, chicken and mashed potato please. Eat. Burp. Order Venti Praline Mocha Frap. Oops… ran out of cash. Use the credit card. Wait for the frap to be served. Get it from the counter. Go outside the Starbucks Outlet in People Support. Go to the underpass again. Go back to GT. Oops, forgot my paper bag. Use the fucking service elevator. Wait for the SE till forever. What??? Not forever, just 10 minutes. Get in. Talk to the SE operator. “Manong, how much is your daily rate?". Get off the SE. Oops, the door was locked. Dial the office number. Heard Fed’s voice message (the welcome greeting when you dial the office number). Dialled zero. “Manong, paopen ng SE”. Get off. “Sensya na Manong, nakalimutan ko yun paper bag”. "Okay lang, Sir! " Bring the frap inside the floor. “Sir Ady, libre naman ng kape” “Lekat ka eh mahal ang kapeng to noh! Dun ka sa pantry, madami na libre pa!”

Unlock my PC. Shut it down. Prepare to go to the CG2 meeting. Get a cab. Head to Boni Ave. Attend the 2-hour meeting. Bid the meeting attendees goodbye. Went out of CG2. Walked my way to the MRT Station. Passed through the overpass and get to Boni Avenue’s Southbound side. Get a bus heading to Alabang. Have a long bus ride. Get off. Get a bus heading to Calamba. Get off in Mayapa. Ride the tricycle. Special, pay for the whole trip. Get off. Get inside the house. Go straight to my room. Open it. Open the lights, the fan, the TV set. Undress. Wear the bath towel. Brush my teeth. Apply the facial wash. Rinse my face. Get inside the room. Wear my sleepwear. Turn off the light. Turn off the TV set. Text someone Gudnyt. Sleep.

5:00 AM. Alarm. Snooze. 5:10 AM. Alarm. Snooze. 5:20 AM. Get off the bed. Go to the bathroom…

And then start a new day.

My life, my world… a torn yuppie…

Bad read? Who said I am to write nothing but good ones? Who? Who? Whoooooooo??????????

Good day!