2008's Very First Entry

I welcomed 2008 with much enthusiasm. While 2007 may be characterized by personal struggles, I know that the Year of the Rat has a lot of promise. With high hopes and with strong determination, I know I will succeed this year.

This is not going to be a recount of all the storms I weathered for 2007. I really want to leave them behind. All I want now are positive energies to help me realize my dreams and plans for this year. All fortune-telling sites have nothing but positive vibes for those who were born under the sign of Monkey and I want to take advantage of it. It’s high time that I become a visionary; a perfect time for me to take that giant leap!

I know I’ve lost my self-esteem and had been torn, but I am now picking up the pieces. It isn’t really hard, I now realized. All I needed to do is to go back to who I was two or three years ago ~ a bubbly soul, a dreamer and a believer. Yes, the process isn’t done yet; I am still to be polished. But since I take things one step at a time then I need not worry. I will get there eventually.

I also learned that I need to go back to the basics ~ to square one. I splurged so much the past year, now is the time for me to see the long-term perspective of things, the bigger picture, the wider horizon and the better and more mature approach to them. Now is the time for me to leave my lackadaisical attitude and be as responsible as I needed to be. Another challenge indeed, but I need to be firm on this decision and should carry-on. Majority of the sufferings I had last year was basically because I became too conceited and self-centered ~ too loud, too aggressive, too ambitious. These things must change! And humbly, I now apologize to those I may have hurt; forgive me for losing against my human side.

By another, I have a lot of things to be thankful of. I have a very promising career as I work for one of the world’s most reputable and most respected companies. I am surrounded by great colleagues, wonderful friends and a loyal family ~ I know they will always back me up. With all these I should not feel less, for I have a handful of bounty. As I look back to the year that was, I can’t imagine where my feeling of isolation came from for in all areas and in whatever direction I am headed, I simply and truly belong.

End-point, in spite of all the things I’ve been through, it’s good to be rooted once more. I have soared high but also became too greedy that I failed to see and appreciate life’s simple pleasures. In my pursuit for self-excellence, I have reached the peak but felt empty. And when I have given up and ready to succumb to the fight, I was given a few more reasons to continue battling ~ may no longer be for myself, but for all the reasons of my existence. And yes, this is how I am starting my 2008!