Christmas Nostalgia

Weekend is just a day away! Alas, I can take some rest again. Have plans already ~ will sleep the whole day of Saturday to regain lost energies after this quite long week. Truth is, nothing at work has been so toxic, but I feel tired and restless since Monday evening. Maybe because I still can feel the Christmas Party hang-over. On Sunday I needed to shop for the Christmas gifts for my Godchildren and friends or else, I’m doomed. Monday morning I’ll visit my dentist for my monthly check-up and in the evening, back to work. It seems like I’ll have a very organized weekend. But I doubt! Knowing me!

Christmas is really just around the corner. I can see excited faces everywhere. The traffic is now a big headache! Malls are jam-packed; all are busy buying and/or looking for their would-be wish lists, while I am still taking my time idly and feeling lazy to move. Feels like I’m getting pessimistic on this season ~ and I just can’t feel the urge to roam around the malls nowadays. Ironically, I’m always with my two friends when they do their shopping but I join them merely as a companion. You wouldn’t see me carrying a single paper bag after. Maybe because I already have my outfits for the Christmas Day itself. Perhaps because I am contemplating on giving cash to my Godchildren instead of gifts. And perhaps because I’m planning treat my dear friends to lunch or dinner instead of worrying what would be the best gift to give them. Don’t know!

I wrote here before that I am preparing for this season more than the preparation I made last year. I stand corrected ~ it looks like it’s going to be just an ordinary day for me. Yearly, I look forward to watch the movies shown at the local film fest but now, I haven’t seen a single trailer of the movie entries (how would I be able to see one when I haven’t been to movies for months?). All I know is that on Christmas Day I would wake up early, perhaps 7:00 AM (if you can call it early) to visit my Lola Poncing to kiss her hand as a sign of respect and gratitude (a family tradition!). Then will take a bath, wear my outfit, hand my cash or gifts to my nephews and only niece (who happened to be my Godchild as well), visit my beloved and groovy Grandma Noning, Aunt Lydia and the rest of my relatives. Have some good laughs while I give out cashes or gifts to my nephews, nieces, cousins etc. Have a good lunch with the whole clan and then after lunch plan what would be next ~ either watch a movie with cousins or alone, take my afternoon nap or go malling. When tired would have to go home ~ watch the television and then, sleep! Christmas Day is over, quite boring!

Well, what can you expect? I don’t have someone special to spend the day with. Sure I have friends, but of course I wouldn’t want to steal their quality times with their own families. So I’ll be left alone ~ on the merry day itself. Sigh! Well, I'm getting used to it. Enough said!

Christmas is my most looked-forward holiday when I was still a kid, as I am sure to receive a gift from my only God Mom (for life!). But now that I am two decades older, things have turned around. I would have to buy my God Mom a Christmas present (if not, what a shame!). When before I always ask for some twenty, fifty or a hundred bucks from my Uncles and Aunts after kissing them Merry Christmas, they would now send their grandchildren to me to ask for money. Hayy, nowadays, during Christmas I end up penniless. A big sigh once more!

Sure, I am getting older. I am starting to feel what I was hearing before from older ones that Christmas is a day when they feel better to hide away from people ~ in purpose! How I wish I am still the same old kid who fancied the colorful gift wraps my God Mom used for my gifts, who’s excited to wear my Mighty Kid shoes because of its blinking lights and of course who’ll boast of my Christmas outfits with my playmates and cousins. Gone are those days. Christmas is no longer a festive day for my now weary soul.

Hayyy, when will Christmas again be merry for me? Can’t wait! Can’t stand it anymore! Sigh… and yes, a big sigh!

Peace!