The tears won’t stop flowing and the agony still lingers in my bare soul. This has been going on for quite some time now. While I pose a grin, I know inside me I am howling. The routine has been more than boring, and I can’t seem to find the end-button, even if I am already resigning. What’s worst, I am again alone on this battle, with no one to hold on to… no one to ease the pain… no one to complete the emptiness within.
I know I’ve been healed and ready to face a new horizon. Like what a friend told me, the first key is to be indifferent. And yes, I was successful in doing so. Another friend mentioned I need to do compartmentalizing - put the person off into a corner of my heart. Again, I was triumphant in doing such. But when I’m back on the loneliness of my own room and hear the silence of the night, I feel the longing and the pain again… and the cycle will be back…daunting me… haunting me…
I am pissed. While I am trying to realize the importance of my existence to the people that matters around me, there’s still one person who can break me out of my normal state. And that’s you. While I continue to ignore your existence, you continuously play your scheme – being my wicked ghost. I don’t like this feeling anymore. I hate to see myself weeping again. Enough!!! Leave me alone!!!
Friends, don’t worry… I am fine and doing well… and surely, I’ll be able to get through… like what I previously did...
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